Ok I am back to my Tuesday blogging. I sure have appreciated you reading these as it has been real good therepy for me. Before you continue to read please click on the link below and listen to the exchange from the movie Good Will Hunting. I tried to find the video but couldn't so audio will have to do. The scene is where Robin Williams (Sean) is talking to Matt Damon (Will) about his recently deceased wife. Take a listen and then come back to the blog!
http://www.hark.com/clips/vmzblgjhcm-idiosyncracies
Now this blog is not going to be about my mothers wind breaking (although she could throw down some doozies). I have been thinking recently a lot about the little things in life and how they can become so huge to us. In some cases that is bad but in a lot of ways it's the little things that are really the good stuff! During the week of mom's funeral and even today we talk about the little things that characterized mom. She had a lot of idiosyncrasies as we all do. Some bugged me like crazy, some made me laugh, and some were just plain cute. But I tell you what......wheather annoying, funny or cute one thing is for sure. I just flat out miss them now.
* I miss hearing mom's very loud high pitched "Hi honey how ya doing" whenever she would call.
* I miss mom calling me from the airplane telling me she is on the airplane with one last goodbye. Side note: that is one thing I really don't miss because I get so irritated when people talk on the phone while on the airplane. But mom did it everytime and she knew it bothered me but she kept doing it. I would give anything to get a phone call from her now.
* I miss her humming when she ate food. She couldn't eat anything without humming.
* I miss her hugs
* I miss her laugh
* I miss the fact she was never on time
* I miss all the times when she was to help with the kitchen clean up in Michigan she would mysteriously disappear to the bathroom and stay in there long enough so that when she got out the clean up was complete. Smart woman!!
* I miss that recreation to her was sitting on the couch watching CNBC. Who does that?
* I miss her screwing up names (i.e. She would call the restaurant Big Bowl "The Rice Bowl" or one of her favorite TV shows was Without a Trace yet she always called it "Still Missing" and on and on and on)
* I miss seeing her in her flannel nightgown in Grand Cayman when it was scorching hot.
* I miss her screaming someones name to get their attention. "JOOOOOOOOELLLLLLLL"
The best part about people is that no one in this world is the same. We are all different in our own way. What makes us different is the little things. I didn't appreciate the little things in mom when she was here. But I would love to have her back just to experience those little things again. Even the ones that drove me up a wall!
It is great that mom left me with so many memories. I can vividly hear her voice in my head, I can see her smiling face as if she is standing right in front of me. Mom was taken from me and that I can't control but no one can ever take away from me the memories that are forever linked to me. And that is really the good stuff.
Cherish the little things in your loved ones! Because those are the greatest gifts they give you!
I can totally hear her yelling to Kelly, when I called for her on the phone, KEELLLLLLL!
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